Beautiful Boy

March 15 - March 24, 2011

Dear Crying Little Buddy,

I know I have told you this many, many times, but you are beautiful.  Late at night when you are crying, I rock you and sing to you.  From the first week, I have been singing to you "Beautiful Boy" by John Lennon.  I fits you perfectly.

It breaks my heart that you have colic.  Every night you cry and cry until around 3 am.  Losing sleep isn't the worst part either.  It is not being able to help you.  And we have tried everything.

Everyone has a "cure" for colic that they tell us about.  But the truth is, it will just go away on its own eventually.  We usually drive you around for an hour or so.  We thought about starting a "Colic Club" and meeting up with other parents who are up at 2:45 in the morning driving their crying babies around town.  Eventually you fall asleep and we carry you back in gently, hoping and praying that we don't wake you in the process.

I know you will outgrow this.  It is all a part of the parenting process.  But I'm beginning to see it as a blessing.  Late at night, when everyone else is sleeping, I am up holding you and rocking you.  We have a little bonding time.  And I sing the same song to you...

Close your eyes, have no fear,
The monster's gone,
He's on the run,
And your mommy's here.
Beautiful, Beautiful, Beautiful,
Beautiful Boy
Before you go to sleep,
Say your prayers.
Every day, in every way,
It's getting better and better.
Beautiful, Beautiful, Beautiful,

Beautiful Boy

Out on the ocean sailing away,
I can hardly wait to see you come of age.

But I guess we'll both just have to be patient.

'Cause it's a long way to go.

A hard row to hoe.

Yes, it's a long way to go, but in the meantime..

Before you cross the street,

take my hand.

Life is what happens to you

While you're busy making other plans.

Beautiful, Beautiful, Beautiful,

Beautiful Boy

I will dry your eyes as long as you need me to, Bentley.  I love you.
Goodnight Little Buddy!

Love,

Mommy