On February 15, 2013, Gwen Autumn was born. She is beautiful. You already love her. You call her "Sissy."
We were at the hospital for four days while you had been staying at home and visiting us every afternoon. Your Grandma and Grandpa McGee took care of you while we were there and stayed at our home so you would still be around your familiar environment. Your Daddy and I missed you greatly everyday and looked forward to every time you walked through our hospital door.
While Mommy was in labor for an entire day, your grandparents, Aunt Lindy and Daddy all took turns entertaining you. Your Daddy found a big play area on the 6th floor of the hospital! You were in heaven when you were there! You wanted to play all day, every day. So your Daddy, Grandma, Grandpa and Aunt Lindy took you up there and took videos and pictures of you playing
After 25 or more hours of labor, I finally had to have an emergency cesarean section. Your sister needed special attention to make it here. But God took great care of us and she arrived safely. It took Mommy and Daddy over 5 hours before we got to hold her and meet her for the first time. After that I could not wait for you to get there to meet your sister! You have such a warm and nurturing heart, we knew you would love her immediately. Sure enough when you walked in the room you wanted to look at the baby and pet her.
Since we have come home, you are adjusting to not being an only child. I would say you are doing very well! You came in our room the first morning and saw me in bed nursing your sister. You pointed to her and excitedly yelled, "Baby!" Then you pointed to your newborn picture hanging on our wall and said, "Baby!" and pointed back at her. It is amazing, even you think she looks like you did as a newborn. Everyone thinks so too. She has dark brown hair, but her facial features do look like yours! Your Daddy and I have been blessed with two very beautiful children!Tomorrow your Daddy goes back to work. This will be my first time alone with you and Gwen. It is difficult because I am still recovering from surgery. I tried hard to avoid having a cesarean so that I wouldn't have to face six weeks of recovery and not being able to pick you up. But due to the emergency situation it was not an option. I am still sad that I cannot pick you up. You are my little Buddy and my precious, sweet little boy. It breaks my heart that you do not understand why I can't pick you up and hug you or let you sit in my lap. More than anything, I want to hold you and snuggle with you. I want you to know how much I love you. So this is a difficult adjustment period. I feel very emotional and am worrying about how it makes you feel. But tonight after your bath we said our Goodnight Prayer with you. Your Daddy prayed over you, your safety, and this transition to go very smoothly and easily for us. Right after we said, "amen," Daddy brought you to me and I kissed your forehead and said, "I love you, Buddy." You said, "I love you, Mom." in your sweet baby words. I cried. It was beautiful. It was a blessing and it was exactly what I needed to hear. I know God will take care of us during this time. I just want you to know that even if I cannot show you my love, even if I cannot hold you, even if I am a million miles away, I love you with all my heart. You will always be my Little Buddy.
Congratulations on your new BIG role!
I love you,
Mommy
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